I hope you do not mind my replying to you? What I am noticing is that the Lord does have His hand in your situation and is teaching you to learn to trust in Him. All of us if we had a choice would not choose suffering, sorrow and calamities yet it is these very things that are used by our Father in order for us to come to know by experience He is worthy to be trusted. Not just theological knowledge or trite words of others who say he is trustworthy. No now it is your time to come to know Him by first hand experience so that fear is displaced by a knowing that even like Job “…he knoweth the way that I take: [when] he hath tried me, I shall come forth as gold.” ( Job 23:10)
The example of the Israelites when they came out of Egypt had to learn to trust Him that He would sustain, help and guide them all along the way. Yet where did God lead them? Right into a seemly impossible situation. For before them was the Red Sea and behind them was the army of Pharaoh in hot pursuit. It does seem our Father loves to place seemly impossible circumstances in our way for it is always against the backdrop of impossibility that the glory of His trustworthiness is revealed. For in order for us to give our all to Him He MUST prove HIMSELf to be worthy to be trusted. The way out for the Israelites was not to escape but God made a way THROUGH the waters of adversity in order for them to learn to trust in Him alone and no one else.
John Wright Follette once wrote about trouble, which is to be our servant in developing this Gold nature of Christ in you.
“Tribulation is a word God uses in relation to saints. The etymology of the word means threshing. The farmer does not thresh weeds; he threshes the golden wheat that the grain may be separated from the chaff and the sticks. He is after grain, not trying to pound out some straw. Therefore God says, Tribulation worketh patience; that is, the golden grain of patience, long-suffering and kindness, comes by way of threshing or tribulation. Think of the splendid spiritual grain of character and noble living produced only through the tribulation process. The spiritual tone and quality of the mighty men of God came only through trouble and suffering.
In the world about us, in the fields of fine music, art and literature, the artist never reaches the climax of his labors and gives to the world the best in creative beauty and strength until he has known the poignant touch of personal sorrow or grief or trouble. Oftentimes it is like a divine alchemy turning the ordinary and prosaic life into a glorious display of divine power, fortitude and beauty. It is the use of trouble that releases the deeper springs of our lives and sets allow the streams of mercy and understanding which a perishing world needs.”
Well go down by the way of the valley,
Just so long as His presence is there.
Though the path may be shaded and lonely,
He has promised each burden to bear.
Through the valley of threshing he leadeth,
Till we’re stripped of all vanity’s pride,
And we’re one with Christ crucified.
Through the valley of weeping to wander,
While the tears gently fall as the rain.
But he promised that joy in the morning
Would erase all the mem’ry of pain.
Through the valley of trouble to follow,
Hemmed by pressures that He doth allow.
Yet He giveth His rest to the weary,
And a hope that sustains in our “now.”
Through the valley of fire-what glory
Is revealed as all dross is removed.
What we thought was a curse is a blessing,
As saints of all ages have proved.
We’ll go by the way that He chooseth,
Makes no difference the hill or the plain.
There are rivers of water refreshing.
And His mercy our path will sustain.
